Saying........Goodbye....

Airports...I love them and I hate them....

I love them, -because of the people I get to watch. 

But they are also the same reason why I hate airports. 
It all comes down to "hello" and "goodbye."  

I have great difficulties with.... 'saying goodbye' 

Even as I write this I am experiencing that pounding sensation in my heart.

If I am watching such a scene in a movie I am affected so much that I need to sit up and take a few deep breaths.

So when faced with a 'challenge in my life' I have been known to go to a airport and watch people say goodbye. 

I figure nothing that is happening to me ....at the time could be as bad as having to say goodbye..

Watching people cling to each other, crying, and holding each other in that last embrace makes me 'appreciate what I have' ...even more. 

Seeing them finally pull apart, extending their arms until the tips of their fingers are the last to let go, is an image that stays forefront in my mind throughout the day.

But I learn from goodbye moments, too...

Some time ago, I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together. 

They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said, 

"I love you. I wish you enough."

 She in turn said:

 "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed.  I wish you enough, too, Daddy." 

 They kissed and she left. 
[How I longed to be appreciated as a father  -like that]

 He walked over toward the window where I was seated. 

Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry.

I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, 

"Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?"

 "Yes, I have," I replied. 

[ Saying that brought back memories I had of not being able of adequately expressing my love and appreciation for/to my former wife & children successfully, (because it was all eventually in vain), of how much they meant to me....before I'd been non-ceremoniously, being dumped & disposed of....]

So I knew what this man experiencing....

"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever goodbye?" I asked.

 "I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back would be for my funeral," he said.

 "When you were saying goodbye I heard you say.... 'I wish you enough....' May I ask what that means?" He began to smile.

 "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."

 He paused for a moment and looking up as if trying to remember it in detail, he smiled even more.

 "When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them," he continued and then turning toward me he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory....

 * I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

 * I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

 * I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

 * I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

 * I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

 * I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

 * I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."

He then began to sob .......and walked away....

I sobbed...

Nevertheless, Today -"I wish YOU .......Enough !"

...for today.

Shalom